Lately I’ve been seeing bad dreams. |
I dreamed that I married Yoshida-kun and that Takeshi-san was saddened by it. |
I looked at Takeshi-san and started to laugh. |
These aren’t the kind of things that I would want. |
Maybe there’s a part of my subconscious where I want these things. |
But I don’t want my child to look exactly like Lain. |
I think that Lain is a good girl, but I don’t want my own child to be like her. |
Why? |
Why, Touko? |
I don’t know, but I can’t love her. |
I just can’t approve of it. |
What am I really thinking? |
I’m losing confidence in my own feelings. |
More and more I can’t tell reality apart from my dreams. |
Is this a delusion, too? |
Am I seeing hallucinations? |
That can’t be. |
I’ve become psychologically hypersensitive. |
You’re okay, Touko. |
I should use the new machine Yoshida-kun gave me. |
Since he helped me, I should at least repay him by cooperating with his experiments. |
If I lose him now. |
I’ll be in a horrible place psychologically. |
I can’t go to a horrible place now. |