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Info: TOUKO's_DIARY
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Tags: marriage
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hallucination

Lately I’ve been seeing bad dreams.

I dreamed that I married Yoshida-kun and that Takeshi-san was saddened by it.

I looked at Takeshi-san and started to laugh.

These aren’t the kind of things that I would want.

Maybe there’s a part of my subconscious where I want these things.

But I don’t want my child to look exactly like Lain.

I think that Lain is a good girl, but I don’t want my own child to be like her.

Why?

Why, Touko?

I don’t know, but I can’t love her.

I just can’t approve of it.

What am I really thinking?

I’m losing confidence in my own feelings.

More and more I can’t tell reality apart from my dreams.

Is this a delusion, too?

Am I seeing hallucinations?

That can’t be.

I’ve become psychologically hypersensitive.

You’re okay, Touko.

I should use the new machine Yoshida-kun gave me.

Since he helped me, I should at least repay him by cooperating with his experiments.

If I lose him now.

I’ll be in a horrible place psychologically.

I can’t go to a horrible place now.


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