I’ve relaxed a lot and have been able to look at myself more clearly. |
That has made it easier for me to write in my diary. |
I can finally see my surroundings. |
The reason the jerks at the lab were laughing at me was because they knew about Takeshi-san getting married. |
I’m understanding now that I’m the only one who had no clue. |
I feel raw and bitter. |
I feel miserable. |
I am sad. |
Takeshi-san. |
I can’t work anymore. |
I want to throw everything away and quit working at this lab. |
I’ll quit counseling Lain. |
Lain will be alright without me. |
Won’t you, Lain? |
Who is going to help me? |
Yoshida-kun? |
He’s better than Takeshi-san anyway. |
He’s young and kind and I want to be held by him. |
I wanted to cheat on Takeshi-san. |
But that’s a lie, too. |
Was I just looking for someone who would need me? |
I didn’t know what a weak person I am. |
I better head to bed soon. |
I’m sure there is a stronger Touko in one of my dreams. |
I’ll be different tomorrow. |
As long as I go to sleep believing that, I’ll be... |