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alienation
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Lain

Touko-san, deja vu isn’t an illness, is it?

Touko

No. You may also feel it’s the first time you’ve seen a scene which you’ve seen before. Both situations have nothing to do with a disease. Even normal people sometimes have an experience of deja vu.

Lain

What a relief! I feel better now.

Touko

Do you feel anything else when you experience deja vu?

Lain

Time is strange for some reason. I can’t figure out if time is fast or slow.

Touko

Do you feel it’s real or kind of ordinary?

Lain

Well, it could be… or could not be… I don’t know… maybe not…

Touko

Is it nebular? Or you just can’t comprehend…

Lain

I just feel something is different. Even though I recognize that I am playing in my house, I feel like it isn’t my house. And even though I don’t know where it is, when I play at a park that I’ve never seen, for me it seems like the place I usually use.

Touko

Strange… Do you feel comfortable or uneasy when you are there?

Lain

I don’t know, but Lain was laughing when it happened.

Touko

Not yourself but Lain?

Lain

I can’t explain very well but it was Lain

Touko

Where were you at that time?

Lain

Let’s see… I don’t know, because I was just watching her…

Touko

I mean, where from did you observe her? Like, were you standing on the ground, or you could you see her from the sky…?

Lain

Well… I don’t know… It was like I saw myself on the TV… I guess…

Touko

Lain, are you all right? You don’t have to bring it back by force. I’m sorry.

I feel compelled to ask questions…. OK, that’s all for today!

Lain

How do you express it in technical jargon?

Touko

No, let’s stop for now.

Lain

I really want to know about myself!

Touko

OK, so this is the last lesson. In technical jargon, we call it “alienation of perception.” It means that you experience something as if somebody else experienced it.

Lain

It’s an illness, isn’t it?

Touko

There is one called “depersonalization” which is that you cannot feel yourself, but you couldn’t have it. So stop worrying about it.

Lain

You can’t prove that I don’t.

Touko

Yes, but it doesn’t worry you. So I can say that you’re not sick.

Well, I shouldn’t have said that; it just makes you worried.

I guess I made a mistake…

Lain

No, you didn’t. You didn’t make any mistakes because I insisted that you should answer my question. Still, I want to study a lot in order to be like you, Touko-san.

Touko

Lain…


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